depression hurts and I doubt cymbalta can help LOL

depression hurts..... (and I doubt cymbalta can help LOL)

i feel anxious sad confused irrational lonely - even tho’ i live with the man i love-
i feel overwhelmed with emotion and can’t make up my mind about what to do about it

mostly, i’m worried that i’ll never be what god intended me to be - and i fight this every day

am i sad about life in general ? yes, but not every single day....sometimes i have sparks of hope -for humanity, for our world, for what we’ve become, for what we could be, for what i dream life could be....for my part in making the world a better place....
am i sad about what my life has become? yes, because i can’t even answer that truthfully, i don’t know what I’m supposed to be, and time is slipping away faster everyday...
what has my life become? i don’t even know........
i don’t know what i’m doing, or where i’m going in my life--and i feel i’m wasting what precious little time i have...

we are only here for a moment in the scheme of it all

and i get even more depressed thinking about what i should be doing instead of actually doing something about it
and getting more confused about it the longer i dwell on it
does anyone else feel this way?

are we all just wandering around in the dark -yearning for a ray of light- hoping that god will come and save us from this dismal truth? but is that really the truth? what is the truth, really?
do we even know?

i look out my window and see nothing but beauty.....
butterflies, birds, trees, sun shining, flowers ...all to his beauty and still i do not feel happy
how could that be?
i am so blessed to have this beauty around me, a place to live, food to eat, a man that loves me with all his heart....and yet, i still feel this emptiness.....
begging god to give me relief from myself

i am my own worst enemy

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